I'm probably writing this prematurely. I think if I ruminated on it a bit longer I might have a more meaningful post but then I'd risk the loss of the emotion behind it. So I'll just dive in since that's typically how I roll.
I don't have many in-the-flesh friends. You know, the ones you can call when your car breaks down or invite over just to laugh. But I do have some of-the-heart friends. Those are the ones who you can turn to when your heart aches. What I wish for is at least one in-the-flesh-of-the-heart friend.
When I was single, after divorcing my first husband, I had a real problem because the couples friends we had no longer worked. I didn't want anyone to feel like they needed to make a choice so for the most part I just walked away from everyone. I was changing. For the most part it was probably better that way. I did keep one friend but it was very distant for many years and still isn't close like it used to be. I was miserable until I made some single-gal friends then all was well again.
After I got married (Bob) I retained a couple single-gal friends but it seems that it didn't take long before those relationships just sort of withered away like a plant that was no longer watered. Still, that was OK for a long time. Then I went to university and met Glenda. She was as friendless as I was and we had lots in common. You might say it was love at first sight. We did everything together and our husbands got along well too - bonus! It was the best thing ever!
Unfortunately, after a few years she moved back to Texas, got divorced, and had interests in a new direction. I think she lost herself for a few years. But since then she remarried (same husband) and is now one of those who I can reconnect with after long periods and we're just as close as ever. We just have to catch up on all the happenings. But there are still many, many miles between us.
I have people who live in my computer that I consider of-the-heart friends. And a year ago some of them became in-the-flesh friends too (BAR). Unfortunately, it was only for a weekend. But what happened is that it really brought to my attention my need for a in-the-flesh-of-the-heart friend.
I have recently expanded outside my normal TEENY TINY circle of people I come into contact with in hopes of finding another Glenda. I've been getting involved with a very small political group of like minded women. So far I haven't identified another Glenda so I will look for more opportunities to expand in other directions. There has to be another one out there somewhere.
In the meantime, I am really looking forward to August when I will reunite with my friends NC and K10. As for the rest of you who live in my computer and are of-the-heart friends, you are more important to me then I let on.